Abhorrence of personal essence Held up in the cobwebs miss you every day you pushed me away blaze within me strikes bothered with my subsistence lost in the dearth of existence new solution of blues red carpet leading to peace cold breeze the soothing love black space the physical unawareness four years the mystical space buried alive my blank stare lone soul negligence of mates wandering my lanes of failure individually upside down you turned my life stability the ceasing soreness tornado's I am struggling to breathe for your disgust never ill touch the hate a lock door now will never unbolt - the stairs worse at my endeavor’s ill never improve bricks of trust thwarted to grime you called me a rare class abhorrence of women race acceptance , never will allow myself raise -khushi